All the problems already solve, Aboy temporarily not a problem now, and money already in hand. But still, some things come to my mind. I went out supper with FH just now. I, FH, KT & JC talked a lot about people in the class, and I found out many things about people. Comparing this semester to last semester, I really did a great job in handling all my stuff and I really glad that I’m back. I’m doing what I’m supposed to do, doing all the assignments and really study for everything. In fact, sometimes things are really unfair in life. I mean I do work hard and I aimed very good marks in the assignments but just that I cannot aim well in tests and quizzes, my coursework are all lower than BH. I know that he is actually trying to be humble but is just his way is totally wrong and people feel uncomfortable. He likes to compare, and when we found out he lied and his better than us, he just say that his lucky. Ya rite, I got cia.
Actually, I don’t think much about that because I know how much I did and I don’t want to compare with people. But, it’s when I know how much I did, people got better than me just because I did the best. Wait, I’m I wrong in thinking or I’m jealous. People are jealous, people gone mad about jealousy, why should I. Now the point is, are people beside me really using me or they are really people that really I can be friend with. I mean, I do like this guy! I can say that he is nice, can say that he is good looking and sometimes, he make me feel warm to have him around. But ugrh, think about he is stingy, selfish, political and sometimes noob like shit. God, how on earth people like that can survive.
So, I really don’t know how people think. As when they come with words that says they want to group with me, what really comes in their mind first? Wow, this guy can do well in assignments or this guy is really a good person I can work with? I’m really confused! Many times I realized that people did their job and send to me but it end up I need to edit everything then only include in the assignments. Is it my requirements and standards are high or I cannot trust people at all where I rather do things myself. But I can proof my stuff can really aim for higher marks, that’s the truth. So, my fault or peoples’ fault?
There is one thing that I totally disagree with Albert, a good leader should give guidance to their members but as if I need to teach them from the top to the end, why should I pass the work to them, why not I do it myself? Is not that I should teach them how to do. If it’s like that, why I want you where you didn’t bare my burden at all. I would have to think properly for semester! Having members should allow us to come up with something better but not having my job more heavily. But I cannot deny that BH did a little job in helping. I just wonder, it doesn’t come up to my mind that I can simply include people’s work without checking it. Oh, maybe Lawrence? Maybe I thought too much and instead I should leave BH next semester. Actually, without notice, he really has potential to be a leader. I mean like me, I would like my members to be independent, I tell the requirements and they perform whatever they can. But he will suddenly come to you and ask you either do you need help or do need text book. That’s when I feel warm! He so concern is because of coursework marks or he is concern on me? I rather people concern on me!
