Long time ago, I was distracted by a person. Many things changed because I care about many things and left aside important stuff. I was regret in the previous experience. Why being so naive and being such an idiot to care about someone that never treasures you. In fact, there will never be a chance to have any from that person. However, it is the time I understand why people got caught in love and why people struggle in relationships. I know it is because they always want return.
Very weird where every time I have no one to tell, this is my place to express. This is the last semester of university life. Many people had inspired me through out these time. One of them is the one and only one James. He is a special person but had gone so soon. Sometimes I have been wonder, if I would known him more, he would be my best friend. When he is gone, he thought me a lesson where I should care about people beside me. No matter who they are, an enemy or the love ones. They all are the same, the people that you put in your heart. I learn to care.
Bad things happens too! I know there has been many criticizing around but the truth is that people do care if the criticize you. Everybody have been so busy doing FYP, assignment, test and bundles of activity throughout this semester. But the only thing that makes me feel so disappointing is that Fui Hwang didn't complete his FYP and he dropped. Somehow everyone have already done their role, helping him in a way of giving him time to finish his FYP and we take up all his task for the assignments. But in the end, I couldn't really encouraged him. Yet, there is some great things in between. Jia Cheng and Kian Tion previously were trapped in the same situation. I gave them some encouragement just like the others did and so they did tried their best to complete FYP . I feel glad we are graduating together but felt bad that Fui Hwang is not. I already did what I can do, hope he really know what is best for him.
Anyway, stop all the bad feelings and come back to something sweet that happens this semester. We had a lot of activity and people in the class get around together well. There is this person that is really appealing, charming and inspiring. I know is just a thought or maybe a crush but this time its not the same. Its not distraction but I learn to keep it to myself and to give more to people. Many of the time I woke up in the morning, I thought of this person. Sometimes in a day, I missed this person's voice, the laugh, sometimes the stupid face. I thought this birthday is special but I think not. God are really a bad guy, I think this time, I will not see this person in my birthday. What a luck! Eventually, its not important celebration anymore because its not in a right time. However, I am grateful with everything I have, every moment I have and I have known this person. Hope everything will OK. Hey, God you there, show people some light, give them some luck and make things OK...
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